This Summer

Just when life seemed just too much it was luck that got you for me
And the demons are out to ruin me but now you paint a picture that means they can't get into my groggy head...and it was for me...and I will always look after you

And you have a good soul and you make me feel like I am on fire and there is nothing wrong and I don't believe in perfection but you come close

Listening to your heartbeat holding fast can you hear mine, watching you sleep, not moving, so soft against me, this is what is supposed to exist and watching you drive and listening to you talk and longing for you, I think this is what being happy is and still it is terrifying.

We aren't playing any games and this is turning out to be a constructive summer, doing nothing but doing so much and my head feels clear and it is not spinning with love songs but with joy and clarity

We are building something this summer and it is love and trust and togetherness, and climb up to me and I will climb to you and we can talk and explore each other and it is all going to be well and good

And you are such a sleepyhead and oh you...

Falling falling I am so falling but not falling down this time, so look what you have done and thank you and even if I find myself out of luck and lose you I will always remember how it felt to be happy and me and how I don't have to hide like a child anymore, and I will promise you more than gardens and taking care of you and I will try not to get ahead of my time and I won't change my mind and I won't be cruel.

And there are so many things I want to say to you but I am scared of scaring you but I love you.